Tripping the boards

Well, we had our last dress rehearsal on Wednesday and it went down without a hitch (yeah right!).

First let me explain - we have Hamlet's dead father played as a ghost - how does COMMUNITY (read low budget) theatre make a ghost - that's right - throw a sheet over him. This was the very very first time that we had a sheet for Rob (who plays the ghost). Just a a side keep in mind that (a) the sheet is long and (b) it is really difficult to see through. As he is leaving he.... yes you guessed it... he trips and falls in sloooooowwwwww mmmmooootttiiiooon down the three steps at the side of the stage leading into the audience and lands in a heap. Our director comes running up and miracles of miracles Rob escapes unharmed - however as soon as Douglas (Hamlet) heard he was alright she (yes -she Douglas is trans) bursts out laughing...on stage.

Second incident was the very last scene where the King and Hamlet sword fight - these two have practiced and practiced this until it has become a finely tuned dance...or so we thought. Hamlet takes a swipe over the Kings head and catches his crown with the tip of the sword. The crown tilts and Douglas and the king lose it. A full 5-8 minutes later the scene finshes with Douglas uttering her last line "to HELL" all the while laughing which causes everyone on stage to crack up - never mind that 50% of the cast on stage are supposed to be dead.

Oh well, the show must go on and at least we hope we can entertain people if not with the play then by watching the cast corpse!

One more....

...dress rehearsal and then it's onto the real thing!!!! I didn't think I'd be nervous but yowza where my legs ever shaking last night!

I have practiced and practiced my fall over and over and over and it seems to be going well. It will be interesting to see how an audience reacts to it. Can't wait.

Work officially sucks ass!! Ron freaked out yesterday and I was so close to leaving - next time I will - office or no office. Don't talk to me like that because no one does - not Joe or my parents and they have a lot more lenicency than that fat asshole! He was quiet today and was going to leave without a good-bye but Stacey said something first so he responded.

I can't wait until tomorrow when there is AB-SO-LUTE-LY nothing going on. Go home and relax!!!

Then it's a flurry of plays and acting and then a peacefulness of nothing. It does make me sad for a bit but then it's onto more plays and more characters! It's weird because I love it so much but at the same time it I'm glad when the frenzied craziness is over.

On to trip the boards once more!!

Consistency is all I ask!

The line from R&G rings as true now as it ever did. Funny how being in play even months after it's over tends to lead you to saying things and then chuckling quietly to yourself - or outloud which begs an explanation.

So this morning I had my usual coffee and a donut - a whole donut - which I think surprised Rachel as much as it did me. Now at 12:31 I find no hunger lingering in my belly. Yah me!!! I only have 3.2 pounds before I reach my pre-October weight but good news~ Joe won't be home so I won't have to explain why I don't want dinner. He has an interview at 3:00 in Burlington and an MRI in Toronto at 10:00 p.m. which I find really weird but if that's where he says he's going to be....

The title of this blog is based on a situation that happened this morning and continues to be an ongoing battle on my part. The office has mediations coming up - fast and furious and which should have been dealt with waaayyy earlier than this.

JRC as usual procrastinated until time is of the essense and now we are rushed - Quel suprise!!He is continuously reiterating how important communication is - so I went in there with something I needed to speak with him about only to have him tell me he had no time to deal with it and he was in the middle of "this". By "this" I am quite sure he meant the mediation documentation however "this" was pushed away from him and he was in fact in the middle of eating muffins (between 2-4 from what I can tell). So I leave.Just a moment or two ago we received a courier package which I believe had to be dealt with. He was standing outside his office and read the letter over. He then said to me find out who _____ is - so I do so and bring all pertinent documentation into his office. At this point he informs me I have interupted him again and that we should meet once. in the mornings and once at 2:00 p.m. from this day forth to tell him where I am with my work and bring to his attention things to be dealt with.

Nevermind that he interupts me CONSTANTLY with e-mails and coming out and disturbing me - I guess whatever works for him. Can you say new job please! I am getting increasingly frustrated with his lackadaisical approach to the practice of law and when things get frantic he becomes so too. Planning an approach to tackle a project would probably work way better than what he is doing now. I am quite fed up with this job today and wish he would just go home!

Down and out

Well this is my first blog --- I hope to keep it up on a semiregular basis. I had to put pen to paper because well I think it may help. Last month was quite bad - from my standpoint and the ickiness seems to have seeped into October. My favorite time of the year and I feel let down. I want to be out in autumn's glory but feel so tired, so sad and so unlike myself.

Thanksgiving is coming up and although I know I have many many things to be thankful for I cannot help but obsessing on what I don't have, what I can't control and what makes me sad. Which in turn saddens me even more.

As I write this I am at work and should be slogging away which by the way is what I feel I am doing everyday - nothing good, nothing useful but slogging, slogging, slogging.

I am wrapping this up but plan to write more later. At home - alone - while Joe is away again at class.